For most of the day I have been experiencing that stomach churning feeling like I used to get on the first day of school, or when getting ready for a first date. It must be the anticipation of the unknown that lies ahead. I feel excited yet concurrently deeply overwhelmed. Am I ready? Am I biting off more than I can chew? Am I indulging in selfish fantasies that should be kept to rest in my imagination. Perhaps.
I suppose this mild anxiety that is coupled with great eagerness is ultimately a testament to how profound the journey already is without even having set foot on the trail yet. The amount of preparation and planning have been amazing, but up until recently quite surreal. I guess it was after wrapping up a huge work project a week ago that it finally really "hit me".
And then there is the thunder... I am sitting in the comfort of my cozy little house, the heater blazing, a hot bath seconds away, my critters nestled close and I think, "My god, if today were two weeks from now it would be a thin layer of nylon and some capilene underwear separating me from that storm". And at some point in the next 5 months that is exactly what will be.
Bring it, Mama Nature!
ReplyDeleteMy favorite little neighbor..I love you dearly and will miss your sweet face for the next 6 months. We will be waiting for updates along the way and just know that you are our little hero...so brave and vibrant and full of life and we just love you! We hope that we can fill a space in your heart when ever you feel you need family...we are here for you always! Love you kid...Jamie & Ben
ReplyDeleteHey Sonjarita,
ReplyDeleteI hope that you are on the trail and the first few days are going great. Look forward to reading about your adventure. I will update you soon on my own. Will be in the Yosemite area sometime in late May or early June(Merced Lake-Merced River headwaters). If we don't cross paths i will leave a note for you under a rock on the PCT.(give directions later.
Dave Weskamp